August 5th,2009

Aloha!
I had a doctor appointment today with Dr. G and the appointment was wild. First I had the ultrasound and he said most everything looked great. His only concern was a few cyst left over from the egg retrieval, but he expects those to be healed by next week. Then came the woah part. He brought in all my files, like the thickness of encyclopedias. We reviewed every single step we have been thru up until this point. He said I am a tough case because of the Stage 4 endometriosis, but also because when the embryos are that perfect it almost always works. He walked though everything, we reviewed all the ultrasound pics and surgery pics again. One concern we both shared was how few eggs I produce during IVF(about 20% of what is expected). He explained how IVF for a healthy woman my age is usually a guarantee because they average 20-25 eggs, fertilize them all, and then every month put a few in until..pop..you are pregnant. However, with my case we only get enough eggs to put them right back in and start all over next try. Then he broke the difficult news, he said based on all the ultrasounds, folliceles and everything, his team have spoken back and forth across the US and believe I am going to go through menopause prematurely in the next 4, max of 5 years. I do not have many eggs left and the clock is really ticking...hello I am in my 20s! He is afraid of IVF wasting eggs right now, because it increases estrogen which promotes the endometriosis from coming back, and produces ,an increases amount of eggs, when I do not have many to waste. He said for now while Ty is gone we need to save eggs and stop the endometriosis from getting any worse so I will go on birth control and the DepoLurpon again to send my body into artificial menopause. Then, I will not have a period, in turn saving eggs, and drying up any endometriosis left from the surgeries. Basically buying time. Then, when Ty gets home try Clomid and IUIs again since IVF has proven to be outrageously expensive and not producing the outcome any of us have expected. Ty and I are excited for the next phase...a break from periods and trying, but still not wasting eggs in the meantime. Then when he returns I will come off the drugs and try with Clomid and IUIs for a few months and then IVF again in the spring. Wow, has this ever been a wild journey. We are forever thankful that our incredible God is carrying us through it all. The doc always jokes about how perky I am when my results have been so horrible...what could possibly bring us down we think...we are living out the plan God has for us and obeying His will. We have always bowed to his authority and timing, this is just another example of it. The peace we find in Him makes this yet another stepping stone. My excitement at the moment is just getting my goober home...hopefully exactly 2 months from today we will be in each others arms, and preparing for an exotic trip to an island we have yet to decide on..........WHOOP!